Renovating)

This is master bathroom or no bathroom at all.

Hello, everyone! I am sorry I post so seldom lately. My laptop is at Lenovo, I had to send it to fix some issues. Still waiting for it, it is second week without laptop. so, I decided to work on the house while I am waiting for my working tool)) We doing some renovations in the house and here lots of stuff to fix, previous owners did not take care of the place, it seems to me that they were destroying that in a very creative way, holes in the doors,walls, weird looking technics to covers all flaws and fixing some parts of the house. So, these weeks I was painting non stop: doors, walls, exterior, we were fixing holes, changing handles, doors, cleaning windows and try guess! We are not done, lights in garage already working, yesterday my fiance took care of that, but it is endless job.

I have never thought before that I actually love renovating. I am tired at the end, but it is fun, to fix, to make house beautiful.

While my nonstop painting I have got small injury, or it is just swollen muscle on my arm, doctor said it is over working with my hands, well, yeah. Try to paint with the roller all walls, doors inside and outside, my wrists were so hurting, so no wonder that I should have some brake from renovating. I still would like to finish house as fast as possible, but it is ok. Today is a beauty day: manicure, pedicure and facial. I think I deserve it)

House already looking better even half way to finish. I have got a few more flower pots, we have got also a few bird houses and food for them, new chairs for outside and gazebo. Oh,yes, I have got some seeds to plain flowers on the front yard. All is coming together)

I guess, we have the most unusual house already, I am about our view of painting it.

Tell me,what do you think about it? Have you even renovate the house? What would you do in your house?

Venus

Hello, everyone! I hope everybody had a nice Valentine`s day! I had nice one, nice flowers, candies in metal box, you know, I love beautiful boxes. I usually think, what I gonna keep there before I eat all candies. Well, anyway, I eat candies very seldom, trying to stick to healthy routine, but you know, in holidays it is ok to try) I even have got Avocado pillow and a plant Venus. Now I am hoping to catch a fly)

That`s interesting how nature surprises us, right? Plants eating insects…

There are lots of kinds of plants, which do that. Some of them look scary, some smell really bad, but that`s how they trap their prey.

I have never seen this plant before, I mean I saw that only on TV, I know,sounds weird.

So, first time I saw Vinus, I was walking around like a child, could not leave that area, I kept saying how cute it is.Well,we got it, I guess less flies for dog, he loves chasing them.This plant is another reason why I thing that nature is wonderful. There are so many unknown flora and fauna in the world.

What about you? Have you ever had this plant? I always worrying about taking care of plants, I always do some mistakes. I know there is lots of information in the Internet and on the box with this cute plant were some instructions. The point is, I always follow instructions and always something wrong at the end. I hope this time we gonna be friends with Vinus.

Just so you know, cactus died before, I guess, it was shaked to death in the suitcase before came tome, that`s why, but who knows.

Have a great day!

Sun

Sun is life, light in our existence. When Sun rises, everything in nature wakes up, plants, animals, birds, humans.

Without Sun life would be empty, dark. Maybe there would not be any life on Earth or I believe, there would be only simple organisms, which actually, do not need Sun, they would be adapted to live without sunlight, without this pleasant warmth. The organisms which do not use Oxygen to breath.

You know, everything what we have, beauty of the nature, this amazing blue sky with pink, red sunsets, wonderful forests with different creatures, all of this because of Sun.

Sun is life. It gives a power to grow, to breath and to reproduce. Sun makes us happy, it gives a light, faith and without faith people are nothing.

You know, when human loses faith, there is nothing to lose. It without faith it is just existence, not a real live when you believe in yourself, in people and future.

There is no future without Sun, faith…People should believe at least in something in order to be happy.

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Nightmares

Have you ever woke up at the middle of the night, wet, trying to scream but you cannot? As a matter of fact, not only cream, but move as well!

I know, I know, all problems in our head! You know, humans brain the most difficult thing to learn, to understand, that some people prefer to learn math and chemistry.

Why I had so many nightmares in my life?

I guess, it is because I am always worrying, always stressed, scared of bad results….Honestly, all reasons of bad sleep, our thoughts.

I had the most horrible nightmares, by this I mean, one in one. I remember opening my eyes and saw a dark shadow next to the bed, my chest became heavier and heavier, I barely could breath, I was watching him, he was just standing near. I tried to move my hand, but it is like the whole my body was numb, lifeless, I open my mouth to scream, but no sound, I felt like something was squeezing my neck. He started to come closer and closer, but why? Is it a spirit or a problem in my head?

I kept trying to scream and to move and finally I wake up, wake up from unusual sound I made, because couldn`t scream….I started to breath, room is dark and he disappeared, I moved my hand, but….It wasn`t finished, he appeared again, again my chest was tight and again my body numb…

Wait…Did I wake up or not? I wake up and could move, but what is happening again?

I am fighting, screaming, at least it seems so, trying to lift my heavy hand and when he is close, I waking up and jumping from the bed with weird sound from my mouth…This time for real, I am awake..I feel I am! Noone near, just darkness, me on the bed, moonlight from the window. It is quiet..All was in my head.

Can you imagine having this every night or at least 5 night per weak? That was quiet life in my teen age days)

Years passed, so my nightmares, I became more serious about my health and world around. I started to understand that I am worrying more about people, then about myself.. What if they will think something bad about me, what if they will not like something, what if at work not gonna be everything perfect how I planned. What if…Why should I torture my mind with that dark shadow the whole my life?

Why should I think about what if? Why not to live and take risks? Why not to think positive and be happy? Why to be concerned about someone else`s thought when we decide what we want to do with our own life?

Finally, in my 30`s and if I have a nightmare like that,so only once per year, but only if I had a really bad stress. So many years were lost with worrying and not building my own happiness….

Now I know, if we fail, we just have accept this as an experience and to get up, get up and go for a new goal… All is going to be just right, if I want.

You know what? I want and it will be. No more dark shadows next to my bed! I hope no more shadows next to yours!

Just understand all fears and worrying impact on our life, sleep (health) and in general- future!

Be smart and be safe!

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To my cat…

I remember days when he was a small kitten. Tiny, ginger and so playful. We could not stop enjoying time with him. It was nice having him around, always some surprises.

This ginger little devil had quiet a strong and nasty character. He always thought he is the owner of the house and we are his servants) He behaved like everybody in the house own him $ 100 each) Anyway, back to story…

This little brat was scratching and tearing everything around. His favorite thing was hanging on a piece of wood, which my stepfather brought for him and sewn thick fabric around. Second thing, he loved to hide in the shoe shelf and every time when someone was passing near, his paws appeared from the shelf and he tried to catch the victim. Yes, I am saying victim, because the whole my childhood I was scratched, with bites and as a matter of fact, I still have scars, some people even think that I was cutting myself, which is not nice, I have to explain that it is all the beast living at home).

He grew up, his character became even more harsh, each of us still own him $100, but we felt like more already) He was a big cat with very serious face, in his eyes we could see that he is not joking. Only one thing was weird, he had voice only if to step on him, the rest, he was not noisy at all, he just was opening his mouth when he wanted food, but no sound came out.

He was 15 years when he got very ill, he had a diabetes and damaged liver, vets tried to help him,he was getting lots of shots per day, honestly, they were torturing him and it did not help. He was getting worse and worse. I was not near, I am in US now, he was with my parents in Ukraine. I did not see him, did not have opportunity to say “goodbye”. He passed away, I hope without pain. All whats left from his – the scars on my arms and they are healing, some day they will disappear. When he was with us, I was dreaming not to have them, but now, I am looking to my arms and think of him, my best friend, my naughty ginger cat, who was with me the whole my childhood. I even afraid that I will not see these scars anymore…

I am so sorry, I was not near and did not hug you, did not say “goodbye”. I hope you feel happy now, I hope we meet again.

Love you my dear, furry friend. You will always be in my heart.

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