Have you ever woke up at the middle of the night, wet, trying to scream but you cannot? As a matter of fact, not only cream, but move as well!
I know, I know, all problems in our head! You know, humans brain the most difficult thing to learn, to understand, that some people prefer to learn math and chemistry.
Why I had so many nightmares in my life?
I guess, it is because I am always worrying, always stressed, scared of bad results….Honestly, all reasons of bad sleep, our thoughts.
I had the most horrible nightmares, by this I mean, one in one. I remember opening my eyes and saw a dark shadow next to the bed, my chest became heavier and heavier, I barely could breath, I was watching him, he was just standing near. I tried to move my hand, but it is like the whole my body was numb, lifeless, I open my mouth to scream, but no sound, I felt like something was squeezing my neck. He started to come closer and closer, but why? Is it a spirit or a problem in my head?
I kept trying to scream and to move and finally I wake up, wake up from unusual sound I made, because couldn`t scream….I started to breath, room is dark and he disappeared, I moved my hand, but….It wasn`t finished, he appeared again, again my chest was tight and again my body numb…
Wait…Did I wake up or not? I wake up and could move, but what is happening again?
I am fighting, screaming, at least it seems so, trying to lift my heavy hand and when he is close, I waking up and jumping from the bed with weird sound from my mouth…This time for real, I am awake..I feel I am! Noone near, just darkness, me on the bed, moonlight from the window. It is quiet..All was in my head.
Can you imagine having this every night or at least 5 night per weak? That was quiet life in my teen age days)
Years passed, so my nightmares, I became more serious about my health and world around. I started to understand that I am worrying more about people, then about myself.. What if they will think something bad about me, what if they will not like something, what if at work not gonna be everything perfect how I planned. What if…Why should I torture my mind with that dark shadow the whole my life?
Why should I think about what if? Why not to live and take risks? Why not to think positive and be happy? Why to be concerned about someone else`s thought when we decide what we want to do with our own life?
Finally, in my 30`s and if I have a nightmare like that,so only once per year, but only if I had a really bad stress. So many years were lost with worrying and not building my own happiness….
Now I know, if we fail, we just have accept this as an experience and to get up, get up and go for a new goal… All is going to be just right, if I want.
You know what? I want and it will be. No more dark shadows next to my bed! I hope no more shadows next to yours!
Just understand all fears and worrying impact on our life, sleep (health) and in general- future!
Be smart and be safe!